i guess. ill seriously gonna shut myself.
cause this wont do.
I'm feeling numb. I don't even know what i want.

you wont know . and you don't even need to care.
cause in the first place you never did.
let me go through this shit you gave me.

I'm gonna change. for the better.
i don't want to make the same mistake.
ever since that,
i've been hurting people around me.

and it hurts real bad.
so bad that no tears will flow anymore.
so bad real bad. i won't even want to open my eyes to see the world.
so much. till i curse myself each day.
i wont blame you.
i blame myself for being a fool.
i blame myself for hoping and believing this will be the one.