Sunday, February 15, 2009
The day spend was great! yes. yes.
thanx people for the day.
reach home later than usual.
very late actually.
but in the end. there just something that brings the mood down.
god dammit!
ill update more bout it when iget hold of the pics.
oh dont ask me when. coz the pics is with putra.
and you know. as always. he is a slow poke.=)
and oh oh! i got a call.. thanx for making a effort to get me something.
i'll treasure you for sure.
once again thanks. even though you said it was nothing.
but the thought and effort was there.
oh yea. at the end. my itchy hand.
it's been always it ahh.
gonna be lengthy and mushy. dont read it if you dont want to.
but if you think you are that someone. feel free to read.
i know mr, i may mean nothing to you.
but you know. u used to be the world to me.
n yes. when u said not to love someone whole-hearted.
im trying my best, so don't worry. i won't be the clingy one.
and i've tried all i can to make things better during 3 years knowing you.
but to you it is not enough.
even after the shits you let me go through.
i'm still here. ask me why, i can't answer it myself.
and i do too. did alot of mistakes. but im showing to you that i do care.
i maybe very irritating to call you every time when boredom strikes.
but have you ever had the initiative to ? have you ever thought how hurting it is.
when i was talking half way thru and you hang up on me.
i used to cry everytime u did it. but now. i feel numb.
i ask myself. when it comes to you y must i be soo weak.
and a point of time. you said. u will change. you said you will take good care of my feelings & me.
and then the nxt moment. you're gone.
and then i'll ask myself. why u came back. when, ended hurting me yet again.
as so you know. i do have feelings mr,
you never ask me to go out with you.
and i think i may be such an embarassment for someone like you to be walking beside me isst?
i cant hold it in any longer.
i know i didn;t trust you. but after what i've gone thru.
tell me what do you expect me to do . everytime i tried to gain that trust in you
there must be something. just fucking something that makes me having doubts yet again.
mr, tell me. what is it? why must it be this way.? i'm sorry. for never being the best that you ever had.
im done.
thanx people for the day.
reach home later than usual.
very late actually.
but in the end. there just something that brings the mood down.
god dammit!
ill update more bout it when iget hold of the pics.
oh dont ask me when. coz the pics is with putra.
and you know. as always. he is a slow poke.=)
and oh oh! i got a call.. thanx for making a effort to get me something.
i'll treasure you for sure.
once again thanks. even though you said it was nothing.
but the thought and effort was there.
oh yea. at the end. my itchy hand.
it's been always it ahh.
gonna be lengthy and mushy. dont read it if you dont want to.
but if you think you are that someone. feel free to read.
i know mr, i may mean nothing to you.
but you know. u used to be the world to me.
n yes. when u said not to love someone whole-hearted.
im trying my best, so don't worry. i won't be the clingy one.
and i've tried all i can to make things better during 3 years knowing you.
but to you it is not enough.
even after the shits you let me go through.
i'm still here. ask me why, i can't answer it myself.
and i do too. did alot of mistakes. but im showing to you that i do care.
i maybe very irritating to call you every time when boredom strikes.
but have you ever had the initiative to ? have you ever thought how hurting it is.
when i was talking half way thru and you hang up on me.
i used to cry everytime u did it. but now. i feel numb.
i ask myself. when it comes to you y must i be soo weak.
and a point of time. you said. u will change. you said you will take good care of my feelings & me.
and then the nxt moment. you're gone.
and then i'll ask myself. why u came back. when, ended hurting me yet again.
as so you know. i do have feelings mr,
you never ask me to go out with you.
and i think i may be such an embarassment for someone like you to be walking beside me isst?
i cant hold it in any longer.
i know i didn;t trust you. but after what i've gone thru.
tell me what do you expect me to do . everytime i tried to gain that trust in you
there must be something. just fucking something that makes me having doubts yet again.
mr, tell me. what is it? why must it be this way.? i'm sorry. for never being the best that you ever had.
im done.